my computer wireless adaptor is spoilt.
my brother is being irritating.
everything's irritating.
i know its my hormones. because my menses started yesterday, so some hormones are fluctuating and i can't stand it.
who can stand it when suddenly its like waking up on the wrong side of bed and everything just royally, royally pisses you off?
my hormones are just telling me how much the week so far has been screwed: failing frigging chinese, not even completing graded classwork, also chinese, chem test just had to be difficult, planes just have to fly past and make those noises, people just had to disturb me to tell me how important it is for me to have the most excellent testimonial so that some rich successful employer would be impressed, or some well known university will accept me, like Ivy League, and many other things and nagging thoughts and to some extent regret plaguing my dear teenage mind and happy-ever-afters.
of course i am (trying to be) thankful because-hey!-i'm richer than 75% of the world according to 2005 stats, i have education, i have friends, things get going for me, etcetera. must i repeat these to myself?
and its just so strange that 25% of the world, although rich, are still greedy.
and i was thinking (ever so optimistically) that the financial crisis may be the cure to this incurable disease. but im so naive.
crap.
im being the skeptic i have always been.
well, just a different kind of skeptic.


am still royally pissed off.

well, the word 'naive' just reminds me of the song naive orleans.

watchmen soundtrack

im in a better mood now, but i still have maths geog hcl la portfolio sgc and its already week seven.





























reality is harsh, no? some smart alecs become harsher.