Sunday, August 31, 2008

Remember, remember the 5th of November. The gunpowder, treason, and
plot. I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.


v for vendetta is warped, but heck: its amazing. crazy terrorist, crazy dictator and his parliament, torture camp, berserk police, sane detective. whoohoo. too bad-no subtitles. had no bloody idea what V was ranting about, but imdb.com was there to help. :D V quotes Macbeth. O:
i'll get my eyes on sweeney todd (and others) soon.

meanwhile, i've planned out lots of great stuff for my future, wonder if God forbids. school of modern levites sounds interesting.

11:51 PM

Saturday, August 30, 2008
livin' on a prayer

or 12 prayers.
thank God for sprucing up the otherwise boring saturday. but there's a price to pay for today, and the bill comes tomorrow, and i'll be working hard the next few weeks to pay it off. but whatever.

all i see, is the absence, of what i was given. but, bam: i'm still really very lucky, esp since i don't marry young, i don't get raped, i don't get abused, i'm not sent away from home to work as a maid, i can learn stuff, and can have privacy, and etc etc etc.

some things just have to be stifled, and others to be stunted.

i shant do the quiz on yingyings blog. (:
yes 2007 was lovely. and this year's not so lovely.


thank God for a beautiful sky.


10:41 PM

Friday, August 29, 2008
drawn and quarter'd

people say im very free, but i'm wasting my freedom away, rotting. and there's always something else to do, but rotting's such an easy way out, it's just plain rotting rotting rotting, the ol' smell of idling away and doing everything destructive and nothing enriching to save your dear soulzxz and nothing constructive to save your pretty ass and nothing to save your delicate fragile bodies and nothing to save your wisp of a life. bye bye.

i just want to be away from that crowd but they want me to join in. and they drag me in, and i just spend my time there, and i come out. you don't take animals out of their natural habitat to play in a circus, and you don't make them keep on playing in the circus, you don't because that's against all moral conscience and goodness and righteousness. but some people just specialise in that sort of lucrative business of torture. they hack young elephants' foreheads with metal and we ride on them, and they whip horses to make them run faster. you think its very funny to watch lions jump through rings of fire but after death they can strip the skin and hang their heads upon the wall. and they feed horses to lions. and dogs to humans. and tonight the animals will scream and groan and roar in agony, and tomorrow there will be more sorrow and grief. and humans treat humans the same way too. tonight someone will die and a couple will quarrel, and someone gets raped and someone loses a leg, some children will be kidnapped and are in ransom, and parents abusing their kids, and kids leaving home. who can list all the things that will happen tonight? come tomorrow and it might happen to you. you may die and you may quarrel and you may get raped and you may lose a leg and you may be kidnapped and you may be so angry you leave home. humans feed on humans. that's why you must be wary and be on guard against that crowd. but don't bring harm.

i need some therapy, aroma, or retail, or counselling, or whatever.

9:17 PM

Thursday, August 28, 2008
fallen angels

i dont know if today was a good or bad day.

but anyway:

1. talked to jianing face to face after quite a long while, and recently exchanged words with tesia too and clarissa. and there are people who thought i smelt nice (:D) immediately thought of leon during idmi when shimei said i smelt nice and inside i was like 'WHOA THIS IS SO COOL I SMELL AS GOOD AS LEON' and so i treated that as a compliment. next time when there's a stench in the room i shall just go and smell myself.

2. celebrated birthday with small tiramisu mousse. alot happened but have nothing to say. :D cake cream was bloody oily and it was all over my face and hair, all alyson's fault. hair was bloody oily and i dont want pimples.

3. lost my concession pass. the moment i got my birthday money, i'm going have to spend it on lost cards, lost shoes, and hairspray dress up.

4. i want to go retail therapy.

5. and i need to mug.

6. and my mum is nagging me to replace my concession pass. ): in the future i dont want to be a mum.


8:46 PM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008
let the flames begin

THIS IS HOW WE'LL DANCE WHEN/WHEN THEY TRY TO TAKE US DOWN/THIS IS WHAT IT'LL BE (OH GLORY)


false senses.

1:38 AM

Monday, August 25, 2008
tears and rain

thing's are just like that. haha. like them when they fall nicely together.

10:15 PM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

oh yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSON HO HAHA. whipped cream ;)

paramore's making me want to dance. hayley is so cool.
okay its the night, and i havent done my geog essay, and i have a family, and i want a challenge, and Jason Wong is a man of God, and there's a wikipedia article on the Lion of Judah.

11:05 PM

stop right there

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.


Mount Sinai and Mt Sinai Road are two vastly different places.

10:43 PM

Friday, August 22, 2008
and it scares the hell out of me

it scares the hell out of me.

my playlist's up and loading. :D :D :D but i have a stack of worksheets to do, and come monday, there might be swarms of ants at my desk. ):

9:49 PM

Thursday, August 21, 2008

HAHAHAHAHA

5:14 PM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008
hunting for witches in my place

bloc party vs coldplay is very surprising.



bloc party and fergie too. haha. cool DJs listen to bloc party.

8:51 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

i have sleepy dreams, and i want them to keep coming, keep coming, keep coming.

am not good with words. i have no mood to continue for another 5weeks of mugging and 2weeks of exams. i have no mood to tolerate others.
i feel this urge to understand what people are talking about. they fascinate me.





keep coming, make my sleep worthwhile.

8:47 PM


i think its good to be unpredictable. but not unstable. and i wish i was unpredictable. and nobody can predict me. but we can always predict the weather. and i wish i can predict the rest of the people. but as some would believe, ignorance is bliss. and so ignorance is bliss and we're left to uncover the mysteries of our destinies interwined and weaved in and out upon each other in an elaborate fashion, and we're just part of an order, participating in a series of preset times and places and penned down words, and we're just actors reciting lines and moving in choreographed steps and scripted emotions, and day in day out, we will repeat the callous nature of routine. and its hard to agree--but it is shocking as to how everything manage to fall into place so easily even when odds seem stacked against such synchronity.

8:30 PM


slept for around 3hours, and i dreamt that we were all against each other. i dreamt of the tension and of the unnatural like a whole stampede of women queuing at the wrong toilet.

and i forgot parts of it, but the reality of it is amazing.

i think its so cool. but i had to wake up.






8:13 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008
fluctuate the fluctuations

1. aw man, come on, life hasn't ended yet. but life's sweltering hot. like hell.

2. sheesh, i'm going to rely on my aircon from now on. and i'll contribute to the whole greenhouse gases thing, and heat the world up, and i need more aircon.

3. maybe its my mind. tkamb states that 'if alot of people keep thinking of burning a tree then that tree will burn" or something.

4. brick walls piss me off. my fault.

5. everybody (or part thereof) idolises Oscar Wilde.

i feel vulgar. but i shall continue to be a good non-vulgar example for jianing to follow. :D

10:50 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

For one moment
I wish you'd hold your stage
With no feelings at all
Open minded
I'm sure I used to be so free

Self expressed, exhausting for all
To see and to be
What you want and what you need
The truth unwinding
Scraping away
At my mind
Please stop asking me to describe

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8:01 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

"; that but this blow
Might be the be-all and the end-all — here,
But here, upon this bank and shoal of time,
We'ld jump the life to come."

11:18 PM


When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking
rest and does not find it. Then it says, “I will return to the house I
left.” When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put
in order. Then it goes and takes seven other spirits more wicked than
itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man
is worse than the first.
Matthew 12:43-45


For as Jonah was a sign to the Ninevites, so also will the Son of Man be to
this generation.
luke 11:30


we killed the good guys.

6:56 PM

Friday, August 15, 2008

everybody's getting drunk. whoohoo. drink the world away!

i dont want to go out tmr :X
the world's crazy, bye. elgin needs his cartoonnetwork.

10:27 PM

Thursday, August 14, 2008
the thieves of time

slacking like shit now, procrastinating. everybody's quoting Jesus and Solomon and Gandhi. why won't they quote me? ):

hahaha. "the only constant is change." change what?
new waves, come. "ebb and flow" ebb and flow.
imma liberal. personally.

8D

btw mum's considering getting a maid, shocking. gotta clear the bomb shelter for her 'cause there's no enough rooms. and she's getting a new stove and new oven, as if she uses the oven at all. haha.

and i learnt to use a new word. 'saikang'.

9:06 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008
displacement zero and period

i have had enough of myself! cassandra-this is your final straw! you will not turn into a monster anymore! you will distance yourself from the monsters!

yes! this is my victory call!

(oh by the way, i don't think i'll be able to blow people off their feet with my speech now.)

oh, and one more note cassandra-i think your mood swings are extremely extreme.


i should not care!

8:14 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008
hedgehogs

i have here a 600+word speech/monologue/soliloquy and i'm gonna blow everyone off their feet with it and i'll be the next martin luther king! :D
haha. the extreme peaks of emotions heh i feel like laughing at myself.

anyway, my days are like echoes.

zzz.

macbeth mood swings. heh. SWING! :D


maybe i'll go be a graphologist. whee!
which reminds me: JN may have sent me the Rhododendrons track, but where's flux ):

Is your pain more worthy than anybody else?

11:26 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008
now

everything is a trigger.

2:56 PM

Friday, August 8, 2008

crosscountry was great cause it was super slack and there's chak dancing like nobody's business. and i get to see throngs of humans run. and i get free icecream :D :D :D beach scenery. and the sun was almighty hot.
the sun was almighty almighty hot.

and i didnt get bitten by mosquitoes. :D
today i tried cupwalker's vinegar apple drink and i tried a new way home (was lost). eh must go try vinegar drink. i never go wrong. :D

and i learnt that there are people who would steal shoebags with old adidas and slippers and spike nails/keys in it. frigging old, holey, and moulded-to-my-feet shoes. smelly slippers. dirty shoebag. i'll miss them (not for long 0.0).








on the bright side, i can go get replacements. :D
and i went past this shop which sells sthg like esther's necklace.



feeling different.

5:45 PM

Thursday, August 7, 2008
this place is too cold for hell

"hows macbeth?" "he's dead your royal highness."

3km run tmr. i dont mind a longer distance though. running on sand, so cool, i think i'll stop running when i'm on the sand. i want to see the sunrise.

thank the Lord for my tests, cheers to the Lord for life's good and bad. valleys shall turn to springs.

i memorised macbeth's super cool soliloquy (part of it).









i'll be patient: its the beginning of the end.

Faith, here's an equivocator, that could
swear in both the scales against either scale, who com-
mitted treason enough for God's sake, yet could
not equivocate to heaven. O, come in, equivocator.

5:24 PM

Wednesday, August 6, 2008
the world will

today i shall start mugging like shit for 3 tests tomorrow esp macbeth and yes, its wednesday now and i dont like long days.
means later on i shouldn't be using the comp, but if i do, it either means i've finished mugging or that im having a break.
whoohoo. all my yesterdays have lighted fools the way to dusty death!


when i see that everything's a cycle of 7 days, then something is wrong with me.

1:35 AM

Tuesday, August 5, 2008




just because i'm losing
doesn't mean i'm lost
doesn't mean i'll stop
doesn't mean i'll cross.










there are monsters out there who want your blood.

9:41 PM

Monday, August 4, 2008
continued

no thanks to me for veering off course in writing my compo and for staying up until 2am to complete it.

macbeth, compo, maths ass(es), gong han(?), speech. stinks. i hate going through the parts and parcels of, *shivers*, life. but im not the only one so yeah, plug up the bad thoughts or they'll warp me.
being lazy, dreaming of what i could do. i'll do them all!

"i'm feelin' good baby!"
"i feel bad for you."
"oh rejoice! eggs aren't 1000 calories!"
"..."
"I'M FEELIN' GOOD BABY!"



"with all im holding inside/with all my hopes and desires/and all the dreams that i've dreamt"

"i felt good while singing yesterday, but i didn't mean all that i had sung."
"right, kiddo, haven't you heard that 'wordless hearts are better than heartless words' ?"

9:20 PM

Sunday, August 3, 2008
for the glory of God

no thanks to me for not getting chinese compo done.

9:55 PM


theres no art to find the minds construction in the face.
i can do everything in Christ who strengthens me.
childish and childlike are different.
maturity is taking responsibility.
i havent do my li xiang she hui yet.
in fact i still dont really get government schooling. i cant get over it.
i havent read the Bible today.
i feel pwn-ed.
but i'll just open the blog again.
anyway the whole 'invited readers only' thing was damn shuang. 'cause i didn't invite anyone.



God bless.

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12:53 AM

Saturday, August 2, 2008

im not the fop kind of person but that doesn't exempt me from being a christian.

Take these broken wings
And learn to fly again
learn to live so free.

And when we hear the voices sing
The book of love will open up and let us in.

10:56 PM