im too emotionally and mentally affected again to memorise all the facts for geog and etc etc etc, i really need prayers. im fed up with eoys, because im just irritated by it. i wish i could chunk it aside, but i/others choose to believe that it plays a part in my future (and consequently i am pissed with myself.) i dont like being nervous before exams, or relieved after the paper, or nervous again for the second paper, then nervous again for the results, then being disappointed/seeing others being sad while im not. i've been stricken by an illness for many times now, and i want to be cured.

after reading that book, im attracted to going to a mental hospital.

""I'm going to allow myself to do a few foolish things, just so that people can say, 'She's just been released from Villete.' But I know my soul is complete, because my life has meaning. I'll be able to look at a sunset and believe that God is behind it. When someone irritates me, I'll tell them what I think of them, and I won't worry what they think of me, because everyone would say, 'She's just been released from Villete.'''

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