mentality2

for a moment, i felt i wrecked my life. but it wasn't meant to be doomed.

2010-08-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

I was so jittery, but He won't let anything go down. He never let us down. I had my calmness and peace restored to me. I'm stoned now. I need sleep. I need God. I'm glad. For him, for Him, for that which had passed, but will return.

I love God.

my english cheem not.

cassandra

2010-07-13T18:41:00.003+08:00

wants to get another platform for random posts.

today is a thank god day, so thank God!!! for who i am under his moulding, for opening the laselle creative cube door, for opening hearts, for healing my foot so quick (the doctor seemed surprised at my foot's unnatural accelerated healing!), for letting me be part of lit up, for fasting abilities and chances, chances, and more chances at being the best he wants me to be/ who he knows i can be. and all my CT results? its so average but i'm so glad, i'm grateful. the mugging period for CTs was god blessed, i had all that mind power to focus day after day after day. and i mugged almost everything in 1.5 weeks! ahahahahaha. means that god allowed me to go overseas, learn priceless stuff and experience a different way of life, and still get average results i'm damn grateful how my holidays were spent. and lit up! laselle is so cool! :D

2010-06-22T11:11:00.002+08:00

my fitness is going down, and i'm quite sad about it. my resting heart rate increased to 'average' range):

the type of activity you engage in affects you so much.

2010-06-20T16:42:00.000+08:00

caffeine overload ):

the reality rains heavily, sometimes.

2010-06-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

because the times might-

because the tides change

because the babes are-

leaving on the train;

because the wishes cease-

because the city train

leads

to the capital of Slumberland.

Will the hopeless pray,

and cry out loud.

2010-05-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

i don't like school because i find it hard to connect with everyone,

i find it hard to connect because i get so antagonistic with my friends,

and they draw away from me.

which brings me to a point: being a loner must be so sad (for the likes of me!)

2010-03-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

yeah i just realised i have some very serious issues. that should be dealt with immediately. i need (more) anger management.

the (!!!) time

2010-03-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

got strung up about why i'm always doing nothing with what i have, and now i'm getting unhappy with my academic subjects at school. i'm not the only one. this is stupid. better not get monday blues/stuck in a rut.

bloody.

why am i so caught up with my own life! i don't need to!

2010-03-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

is damn sad cause we're only young once and i'm just not exploiting my life right now to be who i can be.

but that was how i felt like an hour ago.

now. i just trust that i have a future.

I have seen flowers come in stony places
And kind things done by men with ugly faces
And the gold cup won by the worst horse at the races,
So I trust too.
John Masefield

Nechayev

2010-03-22T23:28:00.001+08:00

The Revolutionist is a doomed man. He has no private interests, no affairs, sentiments, ties, property nor even a name of his own. His entire being is devoured by one purpose, one thought, one passion - the revolution.

the missionaries in asia

2010-03-22T21:03:00.004+08:00

shocked and glad that the maid in the house came to talk to me about her christian school and her christian habit. ahahaha Jesus is alive in Myanmar, and may the future glory go to Him.

2010-03-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

while i was blowing my hair dry:

i thought of how its actually not at all bad to be hard pressed in fighting against the disease of ______ of the society (wherever you are). actually its a situation worth rejoicing. i thought of how apostles can be rejoicing in their suffering. its a fight for dreams, visions, beliefs. i can understand, why terrorists risk their lives crashing planes, making and installing car bombs, and even orchestrate their own death. people sacrificing their bodies. people may argue that they were brainwashed, but we are all brainwashed too. they aren't crazy, or perhaps i am. self-victimisation has a feel-good factor. yet, i don't think i have a victim's mentality-

-i don't (think i) want it either.

oh joy. oh glory.

And Elijah said to Ahab, "Go, eat and drink, for there is the sound of a heavy rain."

1 kings 18:41 - i hear thunder.

a guide to life

2010-03-09T21:00:00.002+08:00

is what people need. i don't pretend to be a know-it-all, but everyday there are people who get stuck in a rut. and its so easy to get out of it but nobody wants to move.

now, i need to get back to studying. i feel it. i feel the school brainwashing me and society commanding me, and i feel like a puppet, albeit an unwilling, reluctant one. how i wish i can be like the prophet Jeremiah, or C.S. Lewis, both who (imho) have not suffered the cruel fate of being caught in the rat race. or even henry david thoreau.

i took a break soaking my foot in hot water (thanks to my ankle) and trust me, its the best time to stone and to reflect. (if you don't distract yourself, your mind would concentrate on the painful foot.) the best part is, i forgot what i have to say. hahahahaha. nvm it means that whatever that went through my mind has gone into my subconscious lol. btw, reflect is not the same as thinking, because thinking connotes using your mind in the GP way (imo, making links between concrete and abstract, arguing with yourself, coming to a conclusion--which is usually a short sweeping statement).

yeah i rmb what i was thinking about. i don't think i can depend on the government to give me a meaningful life. they can ensure that i get my rights, my money, my property, my degrees, and all other practical stuff i need in life. and they cannot give me stuff like freedom, happiness, purpose to live, simply because its a mindset issue (a conclusion i made quite a long time ago). its reality. but it is also true that in reality, people are seeking solace amid the storms in their lives; if not, desperately trying to improve their lives, but are always still dissatisfied with living. its a real thing when people grow old and finally understand that some things cannot satisfy, but die shortly after. its also a real thing when people grow old and die without realizing that their whole lives were spent on chasing something that could not satisfy. when you come down to it, its human nature.

Au Revoir Simone-The Lucky One

2010-03-04T00:02:00.001+08:00

2010-03-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

getting into the music ministry requires an audition, so i guess i'll just wait :D

2010-03-03T21:14:00.003+08:00

hi. im so touched 'cause eds people helped me up when i fell (sounds cliche eh hahahaha)!!! yknow its esp heartwarming since i've been eds for--lemme see--only 2 months and a few days! made my day hahaha.

(must resolve to be nice to everyone!) love your neighbour as yourself uh-huh. yknow (recently) sometimes/many many times i see people bitching and spreading bad reports about others (and i catch myself doing that too), and i just feel uncomfortable because there's no valid/good reason not to like people! its not like we have to take sides against someone or what right. just let it be-----

and i realised stuff about myself. firstly, i realised my pride/sense of self-image/whatever you call it, is really getting a hold on me. then i realised, my prayers weren't for anything serious in particular, just prayers for myself, for my life, hoping that my own life would be perfect in my own way, by the power of God. and mostly, prayers about getting my life to turn out in the way i want it, about positive results coming from decisions that i decide for myself. isnt it stupid or what. and then i tell myself, thats not the way to go. though i succumb morally, i still believe in walking the road of repentance (guess im walking it now.) surely God will be with me and repair my soul.

theres so much about the God i know i want to express, but im not so eloquent a speaker/writer that i can write down all the outpouring from my heart. im going forward, and i dont want to go back. im building my house, but i dont want to build the foundations on sand. now, i dont want to backslide, but then again, backsliding seems almost inevitable to me. is this a case of fearing to be away from God?

anyway, a new maid arrived from myammar (i think). she's christian!

tenacity and stubborness

2010-02-26T22:59:00.002+08:00

i was half irritated today, for two reasons. the first reason is given in the title of this post. the second reason is because my chem titration results could have been accurate but due to some external interruptions i would hold the clip there for a little longer and my reaction mixture would shoot past the end point (!!!)

2010-02-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

lol its 3225 now, i think its 'cause i visited my own site hahaha.

loyalty

2010-02-20T00:28:00.003+08:00

Could I be anything you want me to be
If so, is it meant to be seen?

[Chorus]
Do you see yourself in a crowded room?
Do you think I'll snitch? Are you pistol-whipped?
Do you step in line, or release the glitch?
Can you fall asleep with the panic switch?

Panic Switch--Silversun Pickups

i like the vocalist and guitarists and drummer and (maybe) the keyboardist (i don't really notice him, so sad!)

yeah i didn't really like them at first but things always turn out like that. somehow, recently, for the past many months, i have a knack for liking things i don't usually like. and sometimes when i buy stuff i'm very unsure because i won't like them after i've bought them. this behavioural pattern is so weird--so i started to buy the second best option whenever i had to choose between two. it didn't really work out either; i must also have a knack for choosing the wrong option.

sian. this concludes the post which not many people/nobody will see anyway (my webcounter has permanently been at 3223).

2010-02-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

if you want to know, i have jumped onto the tumblr bandwagon. its distill@tumblr now.

2010-02-13T23:00:00.001+08:00

ahahahaha yes my blog is revived. yet, who would be there to see its resurrection?

people (like me)

2010-02-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

has eyes but do not see, ears but do not hear, and a mouth which causes destruction.

of course, i want to take away this disease from my body.

2009-12-19T13:13:00.002+08:00

FINALLY GAINED ACCESS TO DEVIANTART. but cant download any of those cool tutorials they have because starhub blocked them (as usual).

prayers pain and peace

2009-11-01T20:53:00.004+08:00

this week:
-amanda got B for hcl eoy (and she's happy about a whole load of others things too)
-larraine got Astar for geog eoy (and passed hcl on the dot)
-py's standing in class for hcl eoy grades shot up from bottom 2 to top 4
-ps got her starbucks job
-my cous got A for chem eoy and geog eoy and she's super delighted
-bin got A for emath eoy
-we all thought charmaine failed geog eoy but in the end marks calc wrong so she passed
-chelsia, we love you :D

and a whole load of other miracles. because God cares. and He answers prayers.
He answers prayers. we rejoice. damn i know some of the people who were prayed for failed their exams but prayers were answered! and in the end, we're all going year 5/transferring out of school. oh joy. still, prayer should be constant.
even rachel.w was thankful that her gpa wasnt enough to get her a 4 H2 combo. 'cause she is considering choosing a H1 hist now. (and work for gah-men in the future i think)ahahahahahahahha.

yoho yoho yoho yoho.

2009-10-24T22:04:00.003+08:00

will post when i'm in the mood. mood for philosophy. like: life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life life...
it is to me the most philosophically-sounding word (oh, life!!!), and my most philosophical statement to date (huh huh). i also cant believe i actually allowed people to read this crap.

2009-10-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

am concerned with:
my grasp of both the chinese and english languages. i don't want to start a nationwide criticism of my command of english/chinese (even the sentence above is incoherent)

absolutely incoherent. bah. my english and chinese. (plus i want to learn a new language)

2009-10-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

1. watch (500) days of summer
2. watch tokyo sonata
3. watch new moon?
4. (mild) want to go shopping for music one fine day
5. oh yes. wait.

my mugging marathon is over yet not over since there is gce o levels but still, hahahahahahahahahahahahhaaaa. my last internet entertainment session was 3 weeks ago. other than that i either off the computer or clear email/download attachments/mug.

praise the Lord yeah

6. hahahaha bye.

loose/leaf

2009-09-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

i feel convicted of my crime of being a bad influence. for the past ?!?!?! years. if i ever influenced anyone at all -.- sounds degrading but argh.
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would you define 'finding chem notes' as mugging? it was almost all that i did while at home.
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JESUSJESUSJESUSJESUSJESUS 'oh sweet Lord!' they cried out.

2009-09-13T00:50:00.004+08:00

was looking through my archives. i published some drafted posts. one of these contained my dream, a really cool dream though i can't remember the details (but i remember it looked kinda cool so yeah):

"...dreaming of really weird stuff like the time i was dreaming that Cyclops was dead cause he dropped off from the sky due to some hanggliding/parachuting armchair problem into the Atlantic Ocean and in the dark blue depths where his corpse lie creatures of the deep, giant octopuses came and engulfed him. i tried to draw it out later but could not, anyway the tentacles are artistically disgusting."

actually i don't remember its the atlantic ocean. i think it was either artic/antartica. cause i think there was a blizzard in that dream. but well they all start with the letter A right. doesnt make much difference to a dream like this; maybe i dreamt that atlantic was the artic.

sorry for the grammar errors. maybe i was too excited when recalling the dream.

2009-09-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

i've not been productive during the holidays. maybe i should be regretful about it but-argh-i think i was overanxious the past few days. really bad, its like i'm down with fever or something. or maybe it was my fluctuating hormones lol. horrible. waking up and immediately thinking 'oh no now eoys are coming i'm not prepared i shall do maths/chem/geog/phys/la/hcl oh no which one should i do?' is not a good feeling. not being able to sleep at night is not a good feeling.(flashback: Angela said to sleep well is a blessing. i finally see the light.)

finally i realised that i really need to get back to school to ask questions about maths maths maths. and physics. i forgot everything. why must things turn out this way ):

"four weeks felt like years"

i've known that for quite some time now, but now two weeks feel like two years. or two seconds. oh crap. two more weeks ): two more seconds. two more years. ):

blame it on everybody but me.

the more i think about it,

2009-09-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

if you do hear from me, i will be away. bon voyage.
i wanna stay away from company awhile! i'll be living on a island, but i'll have wireless access. my plane ticket is in my hand now. i look forward to its humid weather and i'll be prepared for the monsoon. (what monsoon?) i think its the northeast monsoon :D (did you remember correctly?) yes i think so (the winds will blow from north pole to south pole right?) hmmm. but the winds will only come in december.

you're highly questionable, aren't you.

oh life.

[i'm livin' in lucid dreams. aha yeah.]

studying

2009-09-11T18:35:00.002+08:00

is screwed. got almost very question wrong, didn't clarify alot of things, don't know where to begin revising; its so screwed.
damn it all. holidays are as stressed as school days (or maybe its just me). damn it all. damn it all damn it all damn it all.

2009-09-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

Said, if you want to call me baby
(Just go ahead, now)
And if you'd like
to tell me maybe
(Just go ahead, now)
And If you wanna buy me flowers
(Just go ahead, now)
And if you'd like to talk for hours
(Just go
ahead, now)

): ): ): ): life's been difficult. my ears have been blind. my synapses have been severed. and i've been loading my body up with syrup and iced tea ): ): ): ):

its not good! i'm rotting.

an unhealthy lifestyle,

2009-09-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

my brain juices are so fried ):

2009-09-05T22:40:00.001+08:00

am thinking about doing this (taken off onionsarelife.livejournal.com, apparently the first site to come up on my google search):

Voice posts are fun, right? You get to hear funny accents if your friends are from far, far away. All we really want is to hear your voice, we don't care what you're saying. So here's a list of typical meme questions that would otherwise be boring, but when communicated aloud - well, it's entertaining. Answer these questions in your post, and encourage others with voice-posting abilities to do the same.

1) What's your name?
2) How old are you?
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now?
4) Is it cold where you are?
5) What's the time?
6) What are you wearing?
7) What was the last thing you listened to?
8) What was the last thing you ate?
9) What was the last thing you watched on tv?
10) What's your favorite tv show? Why?
11) Quick! Find a book, or something with text on it! Flip to a random page and read some of it! GO!
12) What was the last movie you saw? How was it?
13) Do YOU think you have an accent? Talk about that.

tiredom.

2009-09-03T21:47:00.003+08:00

1. lets think about it this way: its 4 more months till january.
2. woe is written over everyone's face.
3. wit, is not.
4. wellness, is not.
5. weight is.

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'noob' has made its way into the Collins dictionary lol.

2009-09-03T00:36:00.002+08:00

hello.
was watching sg idol (makes a good conversation starter, you cant deny) and i found someone (from group 1) to support!

syltra lee!

okay that's all. she's has this really pretty guitar. and i googled her name and it turns out that she's using maestro guitars (if google is not wrong). a singaporean brand! can you believe singapore could come up with such pretty guitars? :S
her band is aurigami. and she has been doing youtube covers which i'll listen to another time since its late and physics test is the first order of the day.
i.e. i need my sleep. bye.

i think she's playing at the Acid Bar. ahahha.

the case of (mine own) weak willpwr

2009-08-31T22:27:00.004+08:00

i am a very unproductive person in an unproductive mood but with a desire to have a completely different attitude. it is very unfortunate to be such a person like i am.
eh. want to be unproductive can always be unproductive at another time right. not now -.-

i fail, and i fail, and i failed again. i'm doing a great job (yes yes). i'm not saying my life has no more hope. maybe if i had ___then, it would have been different. but that's a very sad thing to say!

If, of all words of tongue and pen,
The saddest are, "It might have been,"
...

(an encore)

2009-08-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

wasting time away. mock UN gave me something to anticipate; now week 10 is round the corner, so im dreading the workload. facebook is a time waster. i think i took the wrong laptop charger home. no, actually i really took the wrong laptop charger home. until now nobody else noticed their laptop chargers are different than before.
damn i miss my laptop charger. i'm that personal with my things. they're my territory.
fricking chinese O's. im on the verge of giving up already.
but tenacity can be quite beneficial yknow. so...
whatever.

i want my laptop charger back.

2009-08-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

Millenium Theater

"21st century here we go!"

life's hard to live wow, charming!

2009-08-26T20:49:00.002+08:00

1. costumes and props for teachers' day celebrations will be hard to get. oh dear.

2. i dont like the sound of disciplinary action, but i have more to lose if i give up now.

3.

Bandwagon's full, please
catch another

The Great Gatsby

2009-08-26T00:03:00.003+08:00

i like a certain war poet by the name of Wilfred Owen (yes, the dude who wrote Dulce et decorum est).

Listening to: Sting - Englishman in New York. powered by imagination.

2009-08-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

if you thought ____, think again.
e.g. if you thought it was over, think again.

i'm listening to____ and it makes me want to _____.
e.g. i'm listening to britney spears and it makes me want to laugh.

i'm mugging for chemistry without the chemistry notes (that i actually need).
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i've just added one friend on mixpod.com!

twisted and deranged

2009-08-22T01:38:00.001+08:00

crying lightning sounds like lady gaga, or maybe its just me -.-

no i think i hear autotune in everything i hear.

2009-08-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

ate lots -.- will control appetite.

muse is releasing a new album on september.

wow.

Ladies and gentlemen
Welcome to tonight's show
The Millenium Theater
Asks that you do not smoke
Please turn off your cellphones
And forget what you think you know

lol this was how my blogposts looked like last time.

2009-08-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

people's moodswings affect me quite negatively, but i still enjoy Macbeth.

i enjoy reading my previous posts. too.
because i was more poetic (and self-pitying) then. hahahahahahahahahahhahahaaaaa.

oops i did it again.

2009-08-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

hi i am a chemistry criminal.
---
Staff Tiong Li Ping Cindy to 09y4j
show details Aug 17 (2 days ago)

Dear 4J,

Below are the observations made during your titration practical test. Please learn from your mistakes and remember not to commit to the same mistakes the next time.

Mistake #1: Funnel on the burette when adjusting "0" reading
Mistake "committers": Su Mei, Cassandra, Marcus, Charmaine

Mistake #2: Rubber tubing not positioned at the middle of the burette clip, but at the edge
Mistake "committers": Bin Bin, Cassandra, Charmaine, Cheng Ling, Amanda, Ziyan, Li Hui, Jolene

Mistake #3: Burette clip was not at the centre of the rubber tubing
Mistake "committers": Rachel Cassandra
.
.
.
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wow.
in case nobody knew, im a repeat offender -.-
however i didnt expect my name to appear on such an email message -.-

at least i'm not the only one! people at my table all kena.
hopefully no more burettes for chem prac >:/

tools of the (torturing) trade (or profession)

2009-08-19T20:52:00.003+08:00

this morning was terribly good. have you ever tasted really dark chocolate? my tongue was dying for those few seconds (: and there's the really strong lingering aftertaste. ugh. oh and some people ate them in chunks. and they were scrambling for water after that ahahahaha. amanda's a sadist.

the packaging looks really nice though.

i hope amanda buys something to share with the whole class again :D :D :D

this is not a literary essay

2009-08-18T21:39:00.005+08:00

this site doesnt get many unique visitors per day, because:
1. where are the picture spams?
2. where are the opinions?
3. WHERES THE HUMOUR? D: the sarcasm, the cynicism, the everything everybody (might) expect to see!
4. complete english, whattheheck?
5. fangirling? fictionwriting? iconmaking? layoutmaking? fashiondesigning? stylemagazines? foodrecommendations? movie/theatrereviews? hobbyrelatedblogging? i recommend livejournal. and rottentomatoes.com.
6. this is not a complaint site, but this site's dedicated with a thousand and one tons of complaints. what was the webmistress doing?
7. what kind of content am i reading? what were you blogged yesterday? (why so serious?)
8. ?!?!?! why so demoralising?
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now, you read this post, and if you have been so dedicated to the point of getting RSS feeds from this space, thank you. actually it doesn't matter if you gotten any RSS feeds. just racking up the visitor statistics button would do.

i was merely trying to find a reason (like i almost always do), to justify why i dont get 300000000000000000000000 visitors per day, why i most likely wouldnt get money from putting up a nuffnang ad on my blog, why i dont find red-revolver-riots entertaining, etc. i definitely cmi at celebrity blogging. hah. hmm i dont want to be the next xiaxue or perez hilton, lol. imagine if starting tomorrow i dedicate red-revolver-riots to hollywood gossip or red carpet fashion police. red-revolver-riots wouldn't be mine anymore. (i might even take up the invitation to set up a tumblr site!)
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write with a black pen, write in black ink, p l e a s e. extra bonus for cursive handwriting reminiscent of the 19th century.

seasons of love (2)

2009-08-17T22:39:00.001+08:00

how do you measure a year?

seasons of love (remember the RENT musical?)

2009-08-17T22:20:00.003+08:00

just please, make time laspe, make the world around me move, make the ground shake, make make make. the news can give me all the spazz about elections and disaster relief. in the end, to a student who is totally unaffected like me, in the end, they end up as case studies on our textbooks and revision lists, and all for what????
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why do people write the words 'IBM' using nanotech?
for fun!
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but we don't study these monsters which kill people for fun. its not fun in the first place, and i'm sure these incidents end up as lessons to learn to prevent more attacks/damages from disasters in the future. im quite sure. they better come up with a better warning system (for quakes or tsunamis) soon.
its not fun when people die.
but its getting more normal each day, and i don't know what to make out of it.
i might die tomorrow!

Matthew 6: 33, Matthew 6: 34

yeah. on second thoughts, let me live today.

make the world around me move, man. make
t i m e l a p s e.

weekend war.

2009-08-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

i really like visiting how-to websites. maybe i should get one of those handy (insert topic here) for dummies yellow book! that'll be cool!
my mum got some handmade wine from her friend and she won't tell me who her awesome friend is ): i hope she gets the recipe soon :D

haven't wrote a word for fieldwork report. argh.

there must really have been a 'dearth of jobs' for geography graduates if Harvard graduates start lecturing singaporean students on earthquakes. lol, and i heard she's training to be a teacher -.- to teach more graduates! cool!

i like slacking. thats how this blog gets daily updates. plus jn migrated to tumblr.com, because 'blogger is not behaving'; whywhywhy?! we aren't very well-behaved as well (what).

!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-12T23:43:00.003+08:00

went to do assessment tests on ecareers.sg (suddenly i started worrying about my future ):) and it suggested that i should go be a chemical engineer and it suggested that i might be interested in related fields of work! i don't want to work already thank you.
that was based on my ability. the one based on my interest suggested i should go be a photographer, but that's another oh no i think i should redo the (100+) questions to make sure they got it right kind of situation.

set design, set design! costume design! oh dear! my dad's occupation overworks his brains all day long, and he got lots of white hair already. i hope his hairline isn't receding, but it seems to be -.- his older brother in SAF still has a head of black hair can. no receding hairline -.-
see how that overworking the brain is also taxing on the body?!

argh the entry requirements for a degree related to design/arts requires a portfolio of masterpieces, if not its an interview -.- obviously i don't have any.

maybe i should just suck up and take an engineering course and save the world.

"Everyone's special, Dash."

"Which is another way of saying no one is."

maybe.

happy nat'l day (:

2009-08-09T11:42:00.006+08:00

never:
drink, then eat cheesecake within a 6 hour span.

thats lots of calories ):

do:
go for muscle and cardio workouts.

they burn off the calories.
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happy national day (: i woke up at 11am z.

went to celebrate a birthday + nat'l day, and the whole family who hosted us kept going:

"Just Relax!"

so when i asked for a very mild margarita (foreground), their son was all, "just relax!", and gave me one which wasnt-.- i ditched it. and when my mum was fussing over something (i forgot), the host said "just relax!" and everything was "just relax!"

what an attitude lol. i wish i could do the same.

the shophouse is really european-ish. oh that time we were actually outside a wine shop.
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will be going to saturday night service now, hope i can make it! its at redhill, wth -.- i havent settled it with my mum! D:

okay i dont think i can workout today cause of my family and me -.-
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(45 minutes later)
did i workout? not really.

im getting very uptight about mugging ):
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if you thought autism was something to avoid, think again. i know social stigmas are really not neccessary haha. i met some autistic people ytd at e party and they were really cool. this guy who was more talkative was 20yrs old btw and has an imba memory. he rmb my face after only one meeting more than half a year ago and according to others his memory is like an elephant and he likes singing songs he can rmb. imba can. i didnt even know he's autistic until people told me. and he can play up till medium mode of guitar hero (and i got pwned at beginner :x) oh and he sang Sweet Home Alabama for one of the gigs on career mode.
so, yknow, i see so many people pretending to be autistic and its a very inaccurate representation. just buy more of those charity stuff to support autism already.

2009-08-08T16:20:00.003+08:00

to remember me (and chelsia) by. heh. photo doesnt show the white pattern rachel drew on my cheek D:
where do you get facial crayons? they're really fun to play around with.

btw bruno is damn gay and i kept seeing his face in the toilets. wl.

i didnt expect these people to read blogs :x

i miss eating burgers, but i ate beefchillicheesefries today

2009-08-07T20:46:00.006+08:00

today was one of the best national day celebrations i ever had! (NO CONCERT HAHAHA)
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SnakeEyes should remove his visor!
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i wanted to have my eyes painted (face painting) like the cannibal version of jack sparrow in dead man's chest but i didn't do that ):

ended up looking like mr pringle in the end.
handlebar moustaches are so hip :D

somehow amanda thinks i look like the devil. i didn't mean for such resemblance!
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I LEARNT MAHJONG HURRAY :D sherwin and isabel taught me :D :D :D isabel doesn't look like she can play but she can k. i got loads of beginner's luck! but left early ):
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we left (most of) our face drawings intact when we left school too (esp chelsia)! everyone was looking at us lol. i shall wait for chelsia to upload on facebook (the dead account z) fyi facebook grew by 157% last year alone! heard it on radio (thanks to class 95 morning express; really great DJs whoo!) okay that was random, can use for LA essays (:
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not really good looking poses, but the mosaic function was really fun to play around with :D
chelsia looked classic in the first one though! red noses/korean-circle-shaped-makeup-on-cheeks are also hip.

sidenote: hope we dont get pimples; and don't take photos on the road.

2009-08-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

spent 3 hours on compo, again -.- i discovered that using deodorants to wipe off ink stains from the table is effective, except for the deodorant smell.
its weird, using deodorants to clean furniture.

well! do ignore the fact that i use deodorant to clean my table, please!

oh chariot!

2009-08-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

Staring at a maple leaf
Leanin' on the mother tree
I said to myself we
all lost touch

if today was a flop, will tomorrow be better? (no) if i sleep in class, would it help to dunk my whole head with water? (no) or ice? (no) if i don't listen, will it be better if you cut out my ears? (no) will mere discussing solve the problem? (no) so i conclude nothing, and we shall all adjourn for sine die!

p.s. chinese lesson today was lol.

rant

2009-08-03T18:48:00.003+08:00

i recorded my voice and listened to the recording, all to utterly convince myself that my voice carried no distinctive accent, or pronunciation, or a certain quality such that it would be obvious that there is no other voice than mine.

like, uh. alan rickman. but he had a speech deficiency!

its not much of a worry actually, my voice -.-
i worry more about my actions and speech and what not! its really stupid! rachel worries about how her handwriting looks like, and i thought she was thinking too much. i guess i'm thinking too much too!

meanwhile,
1. i really want to do drama at A levels but i'm worried (ahem, thinking too much) about being in ACJC or VJC. ahaha. maybe i should do IB!

2. i really want to go study overseas, in UK (maybe?). phillipines crossed my mind too, but then i might as well stay put here in sg since both phillipines and sg are SEA countries.
i confess, i'm afraid to go to US to study cause of the guns.

3. i really want to be multilingual, so that i can survive living/studying/working in any country. (think Sweden, Spain, Turkey, Russia, Japan, France, Austria! all different languages!)

4. mr teo showed that even if you failed chemistry/art/your favourite subject, you still stand a chance to work as a school staff (i don't understand how people can handle being teachers).

anxiety killed

2009-08-01T20:00:00.005+08:00

bottletree park = really cool kampung :D they have weird stuff like fruit and vegetable garden and imported bottle trees and fishing ponds and racing tracks for mini remote controlled cars. and there's really a kampung there :x

there's not much homework, only that i take very long to complete chinese ones -.- O lvls! ):

sidenote: rachel booked the jamming room! :O

for personal records,

2009-07-30T23:27:00.007+08:00

I'VE TAKEN OUT BRACES AND I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY WHOOHOO.

now, there's a few more hours of classroom education left for this week, and its going to be shorter than usual 'cause we're going to do MOE survey! and ACE and BP are non-examinable, so i guess it means more slacking. (ACE not really, but my mock UN group finished presentation and paper already!)

yes, its time to get real.
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next week have to go for flag raising. ugh, why can't they confine us in class again?
---
my eye itches and my teeth are getting extra sensitive since the absence of braces (i'm afraid of exposed nerves/tooth decay).
): ):
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i realise i keep using "---" in my posts.
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it (kinda) pains me

2009-07-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

to see how people get stuck in a rut so often. its like being one of the sole survivors of a plane wreck. at these sort of times i suddenly feel really grateful that i have a Christian faith.

you know you've wasted your time if you find yourself agreeing with every line of Macbeth's soliloquy (Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow).

dental in a few hours time.

I'm staring at a broken door

2009-07-25T23:21:00.003+08:00

the best way to gain arm muscle is to invest your dollars on time crisis.
yay time crisis. "~~cheap~~ thrills"!
anw the ollie king game (i think there's only one set in the whole of sg) is not fully functional anymore ):

doing the meme again. trying to get a nicer poem (instead of focusing on work ugh).
i keep talking of work. i think i'm a workaholic.
anyway i chose a playlist with songs of the same genre (to me). thats kind of cheating haha.

yeah so i created a new playlist with less than a hundred songs (i got 95 -.-) and i shall use it for this:

Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.
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Title: I'm staring at a broken door

Burning down Neverland (scatter the ashes)
So let me get this straight
Birds flying high
Link it to the world
Don't try to wake me up even if the sun does come out tomorrow
Despair till the point that they provoke
Sit tight, i'm gonna need you to keep
And we're driving
North to South
For my sweetheart, my melancholic
I'm sitting in a room
And here i dreamt i was a soldier
Tonight we drink to youth
I'm gonna make it bend and break
Empty streets
This house is a circus
I am an arms dealer
I got alot to say to you
Now she's older
There's someone inside me that softly kills everyone around

Was it you who spoke the words that,

2009-07-25T11:13:00.004+08:00

Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.
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(paragraphed for easier viewing)
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Title: Was it you who spoke the words that,

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone/
He looks as if he hasn't slept/
Lord give me grace/
Trouble travels fast when especially designed for crash testing or wearing wool sunglasses in the afternoon/

Paper bags and plastic hearts/
Was a long and dark December/
Squint your eyes and look closer/
Gone, she's gone/

I used to rule the world/
She is a wave but she's breaking/
I have never walked on water/
How cruel is the golden rule/

I wished you would have smiled in the bakery/
Yeah/
I think i'm drowning/
Step by step/

I'm coming out of my cage and i've been doing just fine/
This town is colder now/
Fear/
Despair till the point that they provoke/
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most of the lines actually make no sense -.-
even though the end product is crap, but the songs are great(: i think i should do this again to get a nicer poem, using another playlist.
weird(er) lines:
"yeah" ????!!!! why must the first line be one word dammit -.-
and the fourth line. jackjohnson said that in (almost) one breath -.-
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have you ever wondered how much metal you use to staple paper?

2009-07-24T23:52:00.002+08:00

i found this and that.

shall use debatepedia to find articles for LA essay test :D
i still dont get how swagbucks work. but i wanna get some virtual money :D
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okay debatepedia isnt really great as i thought it would be. hah.

banned from deviantart, again again again.
freaking starhub.

alcoholics and teetotallers

2009-07-23T20:37:00.004+08:00

"you are a cow".

haah, i feel as clumsy as one now. do you really think i survived fifteen years to educate myself on the not-so-fine points of integration or hydrocarbons? do you really think so?

pfft.

singapore is a nanny country and this is a nanny school.

2009-07-21T23:21:00.004+08:00

been slacking the whole evening/night away. reading articles about radiohead and miley cyrus and kanye west and all the most misguided fan comments (ahem, miley's fans) on radiohead.
(ahem, along the lines of 'radiohead is crap') really ridiculously enraging and laughable. and that was what i spent my time on--enraging myself (makes no sense whatsoever).

"When Miley grows up, she'll learn not to have such a sense of entitlement,"

sense of entitlement.
sidetrack: thom yorke is either incredibly shy or incredibly proud.
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anyway i saw this notebook (note: on muji's website); its designed by a SINGAPOREAN (:o) and its really quite cool. i thought it was a japanese product at first (cause of the muji brand). its called a chronotebook, and instead of usual planners which have lines and boxes and such, its pages are blank except for an analog clock in the centre (and that's damn cool, i wouldn't mind one).

link: http://gemssty.com/2007/12/12/muji-award-02-more-on-chronotebook/

its called, using your right brain. hurray for right-brained singaporeans (all of whom i believe have been sidelined by the gov in preference for left-brainers in the past years).

sidetrack: did anyone think of the phrase 'no-brainer' while reading my utterly pointless ramble?

is Guardian trustworthy?

2009-07-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

radiohead interested in twilight, and daniel radcliffe interested in radiohead. (?!?!?!?!)

http://www.guardian.co.uk/music/2009/jul/20/thom-yorke-twilight-sequel-soundtrack

imagine karma police on deathly hallows. (?!)

oh gosh their mv had just freaked me out, i wonder if i can sleep -.-

under heaven

2009-07-19T22:53:00.004+08:00

go to: http://www.welovetreees.blogspot.com

i wish that for teacher's day we could dress up like from the movies again!!!!!!!!!
and if possible, something really crazy! damn i liked the sweeney todd idea last year but it didnt get through -.-

i've gotta be careful of what i wish for eh?
HEH.

2009-07-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

http://www.imdb.com/media/rm3374876672/nm0226817

FRANK DILLANE AS TOM RIDDLE AHAHAHA. scary :x

yet to do work. crap i feel bad ): (for some reason)

its not just how they look;

2009-07-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

watched half blood prince. rottentomato.com gives an accurate review (to me, anyway).
death eaters were way more interesting than harry potter -.-

reason behind alan rickman's voice: "When he was a child, he had a speech disability: his lower jaw was very tight, causing his words to be indistinctive and muffled. He still has a slight speech impediment, it is the tight lower jaw which gives him his distinctive drawl."

Frank Dillane's acting was the best. and he's quite new to acting (?!?!?!) and he's either 16, or 19 (?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!)

plus helen carter, ever since OoTP. whoo.

sometimes i love antagonists.
sheesh i got alot of things to do.

these busy times

2009-07-07T20:14:00.003+08:00

i'm really busy. working on mock UN paper again, and i'm going to start eoy mugging soon.
i'm planning to start eoy mugging soon. just deal with it. some people need to start mugging 2 months in advance, because its inevitable that somewhen ('somewhen'??) in august, i'll be procrastinating/slacking. (no regrets)
that's just weird. i don't know anyone who revises before slacking. clever people revise at about august/september because by then teachers should have covered every chapter of the syllabus already.
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its so weird (again), posting this on blogger. i have the impression that casual bloggers are couch potatoes of everyday life, and that they don't have good sense of language (must be due to the twitzxzxzxz).
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doofus.

2009-07-01T21:55:00.001+08:00

O levels higher chinese on 10/11/09, wth; why so late ):
i was telling others that even if i got more time to mug, i'll most probably waste it on watching a movie or two. heh.

wor_d

2009-06-29T21:32:00.003+08:00

everything is reduced to crap. i hope this building burns down to the ground.
not this building. that building.
but we could always save the library from burning because a private school library beats the public ones (in all aspects minus resources).

i must be in the middle of a world war.

2009-06-28T21:02:00.001+08:00

we don't go to school. school comes to us.

marvel at the power of attraction.

and, schoolkids don't receive education. education receives schoolkids.

i'm a full-time mugger, but i skive.

"English Rose"

2009-06-28T20:15:00.008+08:00

1.dunman high school has a twitter account :O :O :O :O :O it has 15 followers!
2.

"You need coolin', baby, I'm not foolin'
I'm gonna send ya back to schoolin'
Way down inside, honey, you need it
I'm gonna give you my love"

3. im gonna send ya back to skoooooooolin'
4. twitz. xzxzxzxzxzxzxz.
5. i think my timetable will make a very nice desktop wallpaper (cough). maybe i'll highlight the biology periods 'cause it make me happy, and i'm that evil.
6. do you think dhs will set up a blog, or a livejournal community? (because that's trying too hard...)
7. i mean, trying too hard to be hip. sorry, infocomm clubbers. dhs, after all, is a school. and when i think of schools, i think of buildings, and i simply can't understand how a building can have its own twitter account...
8. 'cause buildings don't have twitter accounts. (period. finally, after all the ellispes.)
9. i hate going to school, in the morning, via public transport. i pity the kids who need to do that almost everyday for ten consecutive weeks. we should set aside a day for these people.
10. i, really, really, think of the school building, when people mention dunman high (they always neglect the last word of the name)
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11. How do you fake a fever?

BILLIE JEAN

2009-06-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

projectplaylist is crashing on me.
but i'm listening to MJ now haha. i bet this weekend radios are playing MJ and everyone starts to listen to MJ.
but Billie Jean...is being engraved into my mind haha.

Billie Jean is not my lover (she is just a girl)

reminds me of the MJ night on american idol 8. -.-

same old things!

2009-06-27T21:42:00.004+08:00

"In my opinion, i finished trig ws already, and since its my worksheet, my opinion is the only one that matters."
DYA. [cause it'll be so boring without arguments]

ITS MATTHEW LEWIS'S BIRTHDAY TODAY, HE TURNS 20.
AND SIX DAYS AGO IT WAS KRIS ALLEN'S BIRTHDAY, HE TURNED 24. (i missed out on his birthday :/)

sometimes! and only sometimes! i feel so demoralised because there are people my age who already broke world records and represented their country and hit the red carpet, and all i'm doing is sitting in front of this computer and lamenting about how it is.
but of course!, on other times, i sit down and marvel.

whoo my punctuations are getting wheezy.
(?!) what was i rambling on about!

2009-06-26T21:12:00.001+08:00

michael jackson died :/

i still have schoolwork to complete.

2009-06-25T11:42:00.002+08:00

i found Matthew Lewis's twitter site (:
hmm matthew lewis. another one on my list to watch out for (:

2009-06-22T16:53:00.003+08:00

will:
1. not be so fanatic about the new HP movie. David Yates decided to cut the final epic battle and funeral (wth?!?!?!?!?!). he wants to avoid the repetition of the epic battle later on in final (two) movies.
i was wanting some good fight choreography/fight scenes!
did you like HP5, the movie? it was directed by Yates as well.
(it was really too short a movie for too long a story.)

2. (try) to do my homework*. (now) i'm slacking off in the middle of finishing one chemistry worksheet. i really want to ditch the chemistry reflection writing. had spent (wasted) quite some time thinking of witty phrases to express my desire to not do any reflection on my article regarding wine chemistry research (of all articles to choose).

*includes a ministerial report for DHS Mock UN Conference.
Why must i also be pulled into this ruckus of misery??
(answer: dont know. its a rhetoric.)

3. stop complaining, for as long as possible.
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bytheway, will the government extend holidays?

halfbloodprince(!)

2009-06-21T20:58:00.001+08:00

i'm looking forward to Alan Rickman too (:

2009-06-21T16:01:00.002+08:00

hey :D
i just watched traliers from Half Blood Prince. I SHALL BE PREPARED TO BUY TWO TICKETS WHEN THE SHOW IS RELEASED HAHAHA.

i was walking w church people to carl's jr at marina square (i realised i've never been to the basement of m.square before) and we walked past the huge theatrical promo posters (and wallpaper, haha) feat. the cast of half blood prince.
i'll be watching out for rupert grint and tom felton (: and emma watson (: (:

well, i don't think i'll be watching I Love You, Man , anyway. and i don't think i'll be watching Public Enemies either.
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random: i like DESIGUAL. who else, too???? :D

2009-06-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

UPDATE:
To:
Kim Jong Il, Pyongyang

Claim:
Dear Leader, ...

ANONYMOUS POSTCARDS

2009-06-20T23:49:00.003+08:00

if you have the time, or if you want to slack, please entertain yourself with anonymous postcards.

"Changing the world with a roll of stamps and whatever we find in the neighbor's
recycling bin
Anonymous Postcard is a suggestion box for the world, designed
to allow anyone to openly communicate to a third party without the complications
of personal contact. Claims submitted by the public are turned into
vague and largely indecipherable postcards and mailed toward appropriate
recipients."

reply to claim (part1)
reply to claim (part2)

2009-06-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

this could be my third or fourth post for today, and its about my discovery that humans can be divided into white and red meat, according to your muscle type.

in short, 'white' muscle fibers are those kinds which are predominant in bodybuilders and sprinters (i.e. the strength type, the fast type, the bulky type) , but 'red' muscle fibers are predominant in marathon runners (the endurance type).

its just a discovery -.- sounds like a load of tosh though.

its time i gave my red muscle fibers a real workout.

i'm still slacking off on my homework -.-

fretting; not the guitar term.

2009-06-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

good thing: my dad got HOUSE OF FLYING DAGGERS on blu-ray. whoooo! and he got painted skin too, but i already watched (half of) that.

i realised i really like watching these kind of tang dynasty-esque movies. oh, the drama, and the fighting :D

bad thing: while watching, my mum complained about my size -.- so maybe i need to find a way to lose the bulk/fat/mass/whatever its name is (rolls eyes)
the funny thing is, she told me to run. hello, trainings (and my conscience) landed me into this staaaaaa~te (singsong tone).

oh, the irony of it all.

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bah. i'll try my best to exercise okay? (actually i haven't been doing so recently -.-) i can't juggle education needs, leisure, mental welfare, emotional welfare, and physical welfare that efficiently, geddit? (starts atrributing terrible sense of time to the Perceiving result i got from MBTI)

while i fret over my body size, i shall comfort myself with the quote i've always been comforting myself with.

"Punctuality is the virtue of the bored."

Magnificent.

2009-06-20T16:24:00.005+08:00

i want to catch (500) DAYS OF SUMMER too. this sucks. these movies are going to be released during the pre-EOY mugging season (guestimate) , and they are (most likely to be) the ones i would actually pay to watch at the cinemas.

i mean, NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 was a disaster. (i didn't watch night at the museum 1, btw)
no offence. (heck, who'd read this?!)

i can hear peiying calling me 'killjoy'.
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i'm totally slacking off on the mock UN ministerial report thing. (frowns)
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a pointless, less-than-hundred-words drabble (since i've already wasted about 3 hours of year 2009, i might as well waste a few more minutes):

The reluctant student finishes her education, and landed a job, to become part of listless workingclass.
As she sips her daily coffee, she envisions a spacious, carpeted, well air-conditioned office overlooking the city. A private pantry would be an added bonus, so she need not share the coffee-making machine with anyone else.
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so, what did you think of it (the drabble)? was it an embarrassment?
(i think its immature. ugh.)
(sometimes) i think it's ridiculous, how Southeast Asians manage to speak English. (is it because these keyboards type english alphabets?)

2009-06-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
NOW, WHO WANTS TO WATCH:

I LOVE YOU, MAN.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

(downside: it's NC 16. hope i can somehow make my way into the theatre. argh)

i'm really really old.

2009-06-19T17:47:00.003+08:00

WHO THINKS THAT 'PART TIME LOVER' AND 'ALMOST LOVER' SOUND THE SAME?
well, obviously the titles are similar, but the song! i'm talking about the melody here baby!

well. i like both :D
and i like Giraud's cover of PART TIME LOVER hahahaha.
(yes, another american idol guy -.-)

back to basics

2009-06-17T23:28:00.006+08:00

people change, so if we meet on the streets..._________.
what would happen if our paths cross twice?
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hi. i was actually present for a primary school class gathering.
that's so uncool. it's already an uncool statement.
but but but.
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hi. i don't talk to my family, i talk more to my friends, and i talk less to strangers. when i was young i was told:
1. dont talk to strangers/dont wander too far off.
2. dont make friends with bad people/dont give in to peer pressure.
3. eat your veg/sleep early.

and all that really simple stuff. about nine years down the road, here i am today. i've done the things i was told not to do, i've done the things i was told to do, i've done some of the things i said i would never do, and i continue to avoid doing things i said i would never do. and if you were wondering what i said i would never do, but still did, it was to eat marshmallows, yoghurt, and my greens. (i still dislike marshmallows.)

back to basics. been there, done that, so now: come back. for a moment.
that's what i'm doing now ;)

(what an unsexy quote.)
---
hi. all in all, i hate school. never felt it this strong before. i like learning/education. at least i stand a chance of getting a job which i'm really enthusiastic about.

so last night i was thinking! lets skip the whole, what kind of tertiary education shall i have question. maybe i won't go university straightaway. maybe i'll work for a year or two. my monthly salary can 1. be donated/tithe, 2. be given to parents (its a rite of passage, i would assume), 3. to save up for university. maybe my parents can pay half of my university bills, and after i've raised up the rest, i'll take a university course. could be in singapore, or UK, or japan, or any other country. if i intend to go to a land where i don't speak their native tongue, i'll learn their language during the time i'm working. or something. while i work, i can also sign up for other courses, like artsyfartsy kinds, or sportyfreaky kinds. or cooking. (tsk tsk, i need to learn some survivin' tricks)
but i have to say, that such a life may be quite idle.

anything goes, yknow? i can be a poor old soul, living in a rented studio apartment, or a budget hostel, or a caravan (the equivalent of a caravan in singapore would be a tent in ECP). well, as long i can live comfortably. who knows, i can be a busker on the street next time. (very artsyfartsy, i know.) i can be a hippie doing marijuana, and smoking those long pipes grandpa has. whoohoo. (smoking, and taking drugs, were activities i said i wouldn't do when i was young. still going on strong)
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hi. playgrounds were our world, now, our world is our playground. here i leave you an unsexy quote of the day. it sounds like those kind of quotes my teachers say (in their best effort to inspire you) without effect. i personally think these quotes sound deflated. i dont know what i'm saying, but i'll describe their quotes as deflated. so ahem ahem, this is directed at the teachers in school who do that.

well, i guess if one doesn't get the message, then the quote would be forgotten. well, this makes it difficult for anyone who wants to put up an original quote onto thinkexist.com or something.
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hi. my laptop is having a huge problem. the cursor is always drawn to the start button, and it's very difficult to move it out from its comfort zone. and it's giving me problems because whenever this happens, i can't type properly.
dammit it's happening again, someone help me, and please take note of this, and really i need help, and i hate being so reliant of machines. (thinks of Terminator)

ROCK AND ROLL AND BLUE EYED SOUL

2009-06-13T20:44:00.004+08:00

i'm listening to Stairway in Heaven and its making me...wooz. haha. whatever does 'wooz' means anyway.
yep i've been checking out really old old bands today (Stairway to Heaven, is by Led Zeppelin) haha.

i've been itching to listen to Pink Floyd and the Beatles too lol. cause ummm, Converse had this Pink Floyd HI TOP CHUCK TAYLORS!!! almost bought it haha. in the end i settled for the product (RED) hi top. it's by this japanese born guy, who is currently living in Vancouver. or something. haha.

I LIKE CONVERSE CHUCK TAYLORS EVEN THOUGH I CONSIDER THEM THE EPITOME OF COMMERCIALISM (but hey, if you wear them for years, its worth the price).

i'll gladly buy them again (: maybe even when i'm 40, who knows? :D

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this fall, kradison is going to release albums.

TIMEISIMPTSODOWHATYOUGOTTADO!

2009-06-04T22:55:00.008+08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT, RENE DESCARTES AND PYTHAGORAS AND MARIE CURIE (AND ALL THE MAD SCIENTISTS AND MATHEMATICIANS OF HISTORY)??????
YOU GIVE MY LIFE HELL. TIME MAGAZINE MAY NOT HAVE PUT YOU INTO THE TOP-100-WHO-INFLUENCED-THE-WORLD LIST, BUT BECAUSE OF YOU, I (AND MANY MORE) HAVE TO BE TORTURED WITH MATH HOMEWORK (which i might as well not do anyway, its not going to help me to count change from the cashier) AND MORE CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK IN ADDITION TO CHINESE AND REFLECTIONS ON TIME MAGAZINE'S ARTICLES.

i mentioned the TIME list of the 100 world's most influential people 2008 (aka TIME100) in my post since i'm really really really astounded by the fact that ZAC EFRON is in it. its incredulous. he's one of the world's most influential?! how has he influenced me; laugh out loud.
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i learn math for my own good. remember that. and remember that i am lucky enough to have an education. think about kids in africa (MAN, I KNOW I KNOW. WE'RE MAKING THEM SUFFER BY INCREASING FOOD PRICES ALREADY, SO DON'T LECTURE ME).
many a time i want to throw half of my dinner away to africa. yknow the hungry actually need not be hungry? there's actually enough food for the whole planet.
why do i go to church if i don't do anything about myself today?

RONAN KEATING

2009-06-02T20:03:00.003+08:00

10 Years of Hits track listing

1."When You Say Nothing at All"
2."Life is a Rollercoaster"
3."The Way You Make Me Feel" featuring Bryan Adams
4."Lovin' Each Day"
5."If Tomorrow Never Comes"
6."I Love It When We Do"
7."We've Got Tonight" featuring. Lulu
8."The Long Goodbye"
9."Lost for Words"
10."She Believes (in Me)"
11."Last Thing on My Mind" featuring LeAnn Rimes
12."Father and Son" featuring Yusuf Islam (Cat Stevens)
13."Words"
14."Baby Can I Hold You"
15."I Hope You Dance"
16."Somebody Else”
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Songs for My Mother track listing

1."Time After Time"
2."Make You Feel My Love"
3."Both Sides Now"
4."Vincent"
5."Carrickfergus"
6."I Believe I Can Fly"
7."Mama’s Arms"
8."Wild Mountain Thyme"
9."Suspicious Minds"
10."This Is Your Song"
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which album would make a perfect wedding gift? hmm.
would there be anything which would make a decent wedding gift?
i'm damn scared, 'cause the other party may not like it.

anyway, there's still homework to chiong, and the Etiquette drama, and band concert. that's for this week only.

i'm starting to listen to ronan keating under rachel's influence. lol.

holiday surprise(s)

2009-05-30T09:05:00.005+08:00

holiday homework (based on memory):
chinese writing (x2)
chinese newspaper cutting (x2)
chinese paper (optional?)
chinese spelling
chem tys (x2)
chem (atmosphere) self learn
chem test t3w2 (energy changes + something else)
maths (moodle)
physics take home quiz
physics textbook questions (what page, what question?)
physics tys (answers on moodle)
ACE UN project
geog (moodle)
LA journal
LA creative product

bio proj
bio papers

personal:
organise my files
re-learn topics like organic chem 'cause i didn't listen in class.
do up physics journal

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our UN group is pakistan whoo.

blow some steam

2009-05-25T00:37:00.003+08:00

kradam moment(s). kris is a great hugger. (adam too!)
makes me wonder why adam's fans have so much against kris. ugh.

im tired. this week is the last week of school. not good. means exams are coming. this year is just a repeat of last year, ~~i don't swear~~.

wait, so doesn't it mean that this month is a repeat of last month?
and doesn't it mean that this week is a repeat of last week?
and today is a repeat of yesterday?

its not really mind-boggling, its just the way things work in modern society.
but, only in the society.

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WHOS GAME TO WATCH INGLORIOUS BASTERDS AND PUBLIC ENEMIES??????????????????????

kris won :)

2009-05-22T01:02:00.002+08:00

you know i didn't want kris to win right? since he'll face more criticism and put-downs.
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but kris allen won. adam could have won, and his fans are in denial.
yes, its his fans again, i don't want to go on yakking about it. over the net, bloggers and journalists (yes, journalists) maintain that kris allen is mediocre and america got it wrong.
the fact is, both adam and kris don't even bother about who wins already. its disgusting to see gay bashers, its disgusting to see christian bashers, and the most disgusting is to say that america is homophobic, so adam did not win.
its disgusting that the media tries to pimp both of them as opponents. 'guy-next-door vs guyliner' what the?
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and adam fans are really pissing me off. i don't try to find them, they just appear. and they keep harping on how america is homophobic (-.-), how the christian vote decided the winner (-.-), how mediocre kris is (-.-), more and more ridiculous conspiracy theories (though im sure there's some truth in them), how unfair arkansas (the state which pooled most votes, and also the state where kris comes from) is to adam (?!)(-.-)(no seriously, the world was unfair to kris, just look at his screentime and bussing. this is payback).

in short, they're being sore losers. what would they say if adam was american idol? (answer: a declaration of love and devotion choked full with hyperbole.)
its true, kris will have to sing the ~~horrible~~ cheese which is No Boundaries, and his career will be constricted to contracts. contracts. and more contracts. and adam fans find their comfort in the fact that adam needn't sing that, and the fact that he can choose his career path.
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no doubt adam will reach great heights, maybe even greater than kris.
but:
1. he has irritating fans. fans ranging from producers, to judges, to journalists. (hurray to Vote For the Worst for annoying them all!)
2. the horrible cheese sounds better Allenized.
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CONGRATULATIONS TO KRIS FOR TOPPLING AMERICAN IDOL AND CAUSING SIMON TO PULL A LONG FACE (HEY, HE WAS THE ONLY JUDGE WHO DIDN'T GIVE YOU A STANDING OVATION), FOR MAKING THE PRODUCERS PISSED, FOR GETTING THE DISILLUSIONED FANS PISSED, AND MUCH MORE.
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i think kris really won because of the huge recession. i don't know how to explain myself, but this recession caused major shifts in thoughts and value judgement.
people who are looking for idols/stars, should just fly to mars. (-.-)
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God decided this outcome.
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Kris's victory means something, to me, i think.
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when arkansas pooled in a total of 38million votes, it need not necessarily mean that all these votes went to kris. (-.-)
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i really really like the fact that both the Allens and the Lamberts get along so well with each other! kudos to bromance! kudos to kradam! (:D) for maintaining the hugs throughout the show despite all the conspiracies. despite simon. despite ryan and anyone who digs the whole 'goody christian guy vs deviant gay showman' melodrama.
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stop changing this whole argument into a political one. stop behaving like simon cowell during the finale. (aka spoilt child)
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i feel that this event means something.

season 8 finale

2009-05-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

poor kris and poor adam. here's hoping that neither one of them would win, just because if they do, they would wind up singing songs similar to "No Boundaries".
dont you get it? if they sing that, their albums will be instant crap.

the critics of the show criticise too much; they nitpick more than i do.

1. i love adam's theatrics.

2. i hate the pimping.

3. new kris allen lexicon: "allenize".

4. kris is the real artist. really really real, artist.

5. adam, on the other hand, is a star. with artistic potential.

6. my mum complains too much about how teachers marks exam papers, and about adam's singing, during the whole episode and i couldn't enjoy the program. she doesn't think both have good vocals. well, mum, this season is about ar-dis-treee, you've gotta deal with it.

7. kris forgot lyrics. he screwed himself up big time. well, people reckoned adam's screaming screwed him up, but i'm okay with it. i actually think he's holding back on the scream.

8. the judges talk as much crap as ryan, &

9. ryan talks as much crap as the judges, &

10. this is why american idol is so lame. i finally realised. why do i hang on to this reality show so much?

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kris and adam have better produce some good music after this whole thing.

season 8 finale

2009-05-20T22:06:00.009+08:00

http://newsroom.mtv.com/2009/05/19/were-live-blogging-the-american-idol-finale

kris screwed up when he forgot the lyrics. bah. poor thing.

one thing we can't deny: BROMANCE. they really support each other, don't they?
another thing that's undeniable: adam's really talkative and kris's really quiet. just look at all the interviews. and look at their reactions to simon's comments.

what are the judges for?

2009-05-20T19:06:00.002+08:00

"Those last critiques had nothing to do with the performance. Adam’s critique had the judges basically crowning him winner, where Kris got a virtual pat on the back and a “thanks for playing…”"
source: the mjsbigblog

i get it. i read the judege's comments. of course they're rooting for adam -.- and maybe, they still have gokey stuck in their hearts. simon is obviously trying to manipulate votes,
quote:
"Simon calls the second round a “1 million percent for Adam. I’d give Adam the edge, but not by that much."

source: the mjsbigblog

ISN'T THAT OBVIOUS?!?!?! like he's criticising adam so that more people would vote for him (thinking that he's danger) and he smooth talks kris, so that people can just relax and not vote. it works. check the internet or something.
poor kris. he's pitting himself against the producers and judges of the show.
if the coronation song is written with adam in mind...
i have nothing to say. i rather kris be the guitar strumming guy signed to a medium sized record company, starring in the american equivalent of Reading Festival or Glastonbury or something.

i dislike adam fanatics. like the producers. the judges.

i miss allison.

i need to see for myself how screwed the coronation song is. (kara dioguardi, i expected more from you)

mentality2

for a moment, i felt i wrecked my life. but it wasn't meant to be doomed.

cassandra

the reality rains heavily, sometimes.

the (!!!) time

Nechayev

the missionaries in asia

a guide to life

Au Revoir Simone-The Lucky One

tenacity and stubborness

loyalty

people (like me)

prayers pain and peace

loose/leaf

the more i think about it,

studying

an unhealthy lifestyle,

tiredom.

the case of (mine own) weak willpwr

life's hard to live *wow, charming!*

The Great Gatsby

Listening to: Sting - Englishman in New York. powered by imagination.

twisted and deranged

oops i did it again.

tools of the (torturing) trade (or profession)

this is not a literary essay

seasons of love (2)

seasons of love (remember the RENT musical?)

weekend war.

!!!!!!!!!!

happy nat'l day (:

i miss eating burgers, but i ate beefchillicheesefries today

oh chariot!

rant

anxiety killed

for personal records,

it (kinda) pains me

I'm staring at a broken door

Was it you who spoke the words that,

alcoholics and teetotallers

is Guardian trustworthy?

under heaven

its not just how they look;

these busy times

wor_d

"English Rose"

BILLIE JEAN

same old things!

halfbloodprince(!)

ANONYMOUS POSTCARDS

fretting; not the guitar term.

Magnificent.

i'm really really old.

back to basics

ROCK AND ROLL AND BLUE EYED SOUL

TIMEISIMPTSODOWHATYOUGOTTADO!

RONAN KEATING

holiday surprise(s)

blow some steam

kris won :)

season 8 finale

season 8 finale

what are the judges for?

life's hard to live wow, charming!