i am a very unproductive person in an unproductive mood but with a desire to have a completely different attitude. it is very unfortunate to be such a person like i am.
eh. want to be unproductive can always be unproductive at another time right. not now -.-

i fail, and i fail, and i failed again. i'm doing a great job (yes yes). i'm not saying my life has no more hope. maybe if i had ___then, it would have been different. but that's a very sad thing to say!

If, of all words of tongue and pen,
The saddest are, "It might have been,"
...

(an encore)