connection is slow. anyway i wanted to say that there are two kinds of rotting. the first kind is rotting and going skinnier everyday and the other kind is the kind where your rot and grow fatter everyday and that is exactly what is happening to me nooooooo waaaaaay.

and i want to say that i feel like the past fifteeen years of my life have not progressed much and that is not helping and this house i am in now will be empty for the next few days because my dad and brother will be out in phuket and hahahahhaha my brother should be the only child there oh man i feel that i should have gone with them but i think they will be sitting on elephants and boats again and holidays make you even fatter because of buffets and i do not know if next year i would have time to go morning service oh man do not even mention next year talk about this year i have not sent any christmas cards out yet and oh no there is so many things i could have done in the holidays but i do not think they will make me any more happy than i am now (i am not that happy oh man what am i babbling about) oh i have a good progress award yay i get money for good progress i did not really work so hard for that i only prayed that i will get good grades so hahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhaha i get money maybe i can use the grades i get to earn some money off the government since anyway my parents pay taxes and all that stuff who ever invented taxes in the first place okay i decided that i will not want to earn money by getting good grades because that is just so not what i had in mind for an ideal career okay i do not want to be exam oriented but somehow i just am and that is what i dislike about myself argh maybe i can change people change the only constant is change but there is a saying that leopards do not change their spots am i born like this or what zzzzzz i have a frigging headache and i am not hungry for well anything oh i remember that "the full hates honey" or something like that i am so pathetic looking at my days of living i was rotting decomposing dying (i remember once again from somewhere that "once you're born you are dying" or something) and i would like to point out that the "you're" i just quoted just now was the first contraction in this passage (right?) and this "you're" in this sentence was the second one and the latest "you're" you saw was the third one oh no another "you're" came out argh whatever its all crap okay lets just laugh it off and stop reading this (if you're ever reading it).

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