reasons i must:
Christ.
effect on others.

but i dont want. i want to be myself.

"why can't you just be?" be what? i don't want to be stuck with being secure forever. like, today i wake up and eat breakfast, and work, and eat lunch, and play, and eat dinner, and sleep. and tomorrow i wake up at the same time, and eat the same breakfast at the same time, and start work from where i left off, and eat the same lunch at the same time, and play with the same stuff, and eat the same dinner at the same time, and sleep at the same time as yesterday. its prison. its conforming.

anyway today was a really great day.

i miss the bus, i take the next one. i miss the bus, i take the next one. i miss the bus, i take the next one. i miss the bus, i take the next one. i keep missing the bus. its the last bus.

i aim for the target, i miss. i aim for the target, i miss. i aim for the target, i miss. i keep aiming and i keep missing. so i got an idea. if i strive to miss on purpose, i can hit the target. so i aimed somewhere else on purpose. and the target...i dont know what happened to the target.

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